words for her

i’ve loved her for so long that other girls don’t even catch my eye i see them but that’s it i don’t think other girls are pretty i don’t find other girl attractive they are just there. it’s hard for me to make this sound poetic and real so i won’t even try too all I can say is that i love you , i love you with all my heart and i know you don’t feel the same way about me and that’s fine with me … okay okay it’s not fine with me but the point is i’ll live i’ll make it. It’s not going to kill me but it’s hard to wake up knowing that i can never have the girl of my dreams , it’s hard to face reality at times but then i remember wait we are still friends i’ve shared a lot with you and you’ve shared a lot with me we have each other it may not be in the way i want but we have each other. i know i’m not the best there is i know i’ve made a lot of mistakes in the past do i regret them yes and no. I regret treating you like that because you deserve better then that you deserve to be treated like you are  beautiful and no because it shows me you truly are a special wonderful person you’ve stayed by my side when i was down , up and everywhere in between and all the stuff i’ve put you through yet your still here to cheer me up when i’m sad hopefully we will be together for years to come too. I love you even though you dont love me thats fine sometimes i just wish i knew why…but do i really want the answer yes and no….it can’t hurt anymore waking up to a world without you.

(disclaimer i just 500 days of summer so all these feelings are rushing back to me , no she doesn’t make me depressed she makes me happy all though i don’t rely on her to be happy she just makes a grey day bright again it’s hard to explain)